being 19's as odd as being 11

from: picturebookillustration.blogspot.com

well, it's my birthday, but not my birth date.
just my-birth's-day :D
wednesday, that is.

am 19 now, but sometimes, I feel like an 11.

why I said same?
a. both are the prime numbers.
b. both are the transition ages.
c. both are the odd numbers *it'll make everyone in that ages are odds, I guess* :D
d. a,b,c are true.

if you pick;
a. yap. that's true. just see them. 11-13-17-19 *even the pupils know that* LOL
b. yap. because when (1) I was 11, you could say I was a kid/child, but some says, I've already tween/adolescents. and (2) now I'm 19, you could say I'm in my late adolescents age, or in my young adults age :D
c. yap. odds! LOL as I told u above, when you were in 11, you're in the adolescents' transition. it makes you seems like a-girl-from-outer-space. you don't know how to enter your 'periodstarts' age, and something called puberty. and when you are in 19, you're in adolescents-to-young-adults' transition. and it makes you seems like a-woman-wannabe-from-very-outer-space. you have to leave all the girl's thing that you love, and starts to think what's woman thinks, and do what's woman does.
d. yeah, a, b, c are true :)

that's all the reason why I said that being 19 is as odd as being 11 :D

what do you think? ;)

and then?

homesick

I lose some sales
and my boss won't be happy
but I can't stop listening to the sound
of two soft voices blended in perfection
from the reels of this record that I found

every day there's a boy in the mirror
asking me
what are you doing here
finding all my previous motives
growing increasingly unclear

I travelled far and I burned all the bridges
I believed as SOON as I hit land
all the other
options held before me
WILL wither in the light of my plan

so I lose some sales
and my boss won't be happy
but there's only one thing on my mind
searching boxes underneath the counter
on a chance that on a tape I'd find

a song for
someone who needs somewhere
to long for

homesick
cause I no longer know
what home is

-Kings of Convenience - Homesick

huhuhu
I love this song.
when I heard it, I always wondering where I should be.
yeah.
Where am I?
Where should I be?

I always feel empty.
null.

really homesick.
missed something called home.
but I don't know where actually my H-O-M-E is.

sick.
home.
sick.
homesick.

someone out there, could you find me a way to home? and then?

Having Foreplay with Hot Chocolate

di pojok pintu samping,
aku senang duduk disitu.
di dekat pilar persegi panjang depan jendela.

senang rasanya melihat para penghuni jalanan meneriakkan klaksonnya.
senang rasanya mendengar lagu tak jelas yang mengiang di kupingku.
benci sih, melihat para penghuni jalanan itu selalu bergantian berteriak.
benci sih, mendengar suara tak jelas yang selalu bergantian mendengung.

ahh..
nikmat rasanya..
menikmati cokelatnya hidup.
menikmati cokelatnya saringan nikotin.
menikmati cokelatnya cairan di gelas itu.

hot chocolate
aku suka hot chocolate
selalu suka dia
karena dia selalu tahu caranya membuat jalanan lurus di otak saya menjadi keriting.
kenapa harus keriting?
ya, karena otak keriting itulah otak normal.

yeah,
otak keriting saya bisa menjadikan saya normal dalam berpikir tentang tugas-tugas itu.

5.19pm - @pintu samping

and then?

Fresh Unfresh

hmmm..

i have the fresh health but i don't have the fresh body
i have the fresh mind but i don't have the fresh brain

isn't it moronic?

you have the fresh words but you don't have the fresh mouth
you have the fresh hearing but you don't have the fresh ears

isn't it moronic?

she has the fresh look but she doesn't have the fresh face
she has the fresh cookery but she doesn't have the fresh hands

isn't it moronic?

he has the fresh power but he doesn't have the fresh muscles
he has the fresh precise but he doesn't have the fresh eyes

isn't it moronic?

we don't have the fresh air in this superannuated-world
we don't have the fresh idea in this one's-own-world

huft..

i think it's really-super-moronic things that i ever 'speak'

08.09am,in.this.fucking-world and then?

The Expressive Baby

two days after my 19th birthday, my nephew was born. it happened on march 2009 :)
i love the baby because i saw him birth :D

here are his photos :)

look at his right hand :) it was taken on 10th April 2009 :)
*click here to shall look in more detail*

the baby eat richeese :D
*click here to shall look in more detail*

he's so cute. isn't he? :D
*click here to shall look in more detail*

if you don't mind, please left a comment :) and then?

nightmare before christmas :D

this picture from google.com

today, i went to MTC karebosi makassar.
i wanted to looking for a pc headset :D

at there, i came up to an accesories mobile phone store firstly :-D
unfortunately i can't find it *hell yeah, i came to wrong store* :-P

but wait...

i saw something!
what was that??

KYAAAAAAAA!!

i saw a NIGHTMARE BEFORE XMAS' casing for my mobile phone!!
and it's Glow in The Dark!!!

oh..
Lucky Me!!
i've been searching that for long time ago :P

oh..
how LOVEly this day!! :)
how about urs? :D

and then?

addicted to injection

28th May, 2009.
i've got my first time to blood donor. of course i was the donor :)
before that time, i've tried three times to give my blood but i didn't qualified because my weight was not enough yet :D

so i was trying on that time, when my faculty celebrate it's 9th birthday :)
and guess what??
i PASSED!!!!! :))

huft..
i was HAPPY but my heart was beating like a hammer! LOL
my friend said that the feeling when the hypodermic needle touch the skin was soooo hurt!
ooopss..
my heart keep beating more than like a hammer! :D

and then...
here we go!!
it's my turn!

so i came up to that room where two beds and a nurse were there.

....

it's really my turn!!

the nurse tell me to be in bed and she measured my blood pressure first.
i asked, "is it hurt?"
and she just smile at me! sigh*

....

and then she started to put the hypodermic needle into my skin softly...
i feel NOTHING!
my friend lied to me!

LOL LOL LOL

it's finish!
hah?
i shocked that my out-blood is 250cc :D

but, wait..

i feel something..

i guess i WANTed it more!!
i WANT more!!

ouch...
please give me the needle.. and then?

gak usah dibaca,, gak penting

hari ini gak telattt!! yippie!!

hehehe

patut dicatat :)





udah dibilang,, gak usah dibaca.. gak penting, kan? ;) and then?

it's called Lovingitis

iya..
ini memang tentang cinta..
ini juga tentang penyakit..
sebut saja penyakit cinta..
kerennya, LOVINGITIS :)

penyebab:

• menemukan orang/sesuatu yang disayangi
• menyayangi orang/sesuatu itu bahkan melebihi rasa sayang pada dirinya sendiri

gejala:

• demam cinta, bisa jadi malarindu
• nafsu makan tak stabil selama belum melihatnya
• asma *sesak napas* saat mendengar suaranya/melihat matanya
• insomnia bila tak mendengar suaranya/melihatnya
• jantung berdebar-debar saat di dekatnya/mendengar suaranya
• sariawan, karena kurang vitamin C(inta)
• sakit kepala, bila tidak mendengar kabarnya

ps: gejala diatas hanya gejala umum, gejala dapat berbeda pada setiap orang

pertolongan pertama dan penanggulangannya:

• meneleponnya/mengirim sms kepadanya
• melihat fotonya
• melihat sms-smsnya
• mendengar pesan audionya
• pergi ke tempat kalian pernah datangi/pertama kali bertemu
• memasak masakan yang kalian pernah masak bersama *jika pernah*
• berbicara dengan teman dekatnya
• curhat denganNya *Dia Maha Tahu*
• jika sudah sangat akut, tidak ada jalan lain selain menemuinya :D

jika kalian yang sedang mengalaminya, tiada hal yang diperlukan selain SABAR :)
sesungguhnya orang-orang yang bersabar, akan selalu diberikan hadiah olehNya.

missedhimode:ON-suatusoresetelahujan

and then?

menghabiskan *sisa* waktu

gimana?

ya gitu.

denganmu, waktu terasa lambat.

tanpamu, waktu harus terasa sangat cepat.

aku kangen kamu, tau!

selalu!

huh.

ya kalo gada kamu, aku harus melakukan sibuksibuksibuk supaya jikalau kamu di sampingku, aku tak sibuk lagi.

bukan kamu yang menemaniku, akulah yang menemanimu.

and then?

hmmmm

aku sayang kamu
titik


hmmm...
rasa yang gila.
gila. aneh.
bisa aja.
karena aku sayang kamu
itu aja.
ga tau kenapa.
jangan tanya kenapa.
aku merasa.
bukan yang membuat.

aku sayang kamu
titik

@grusycafe - withim - 0800pm

and then?

hilang sepi punah

hmmm...

ini apa lagi, entahlah...

saya juga ga tau..

*aneh*

aneh???

biarkan saja..


mau mengingat saja..
kemarin dulu lebaran,
tapi tak seperti lebaran biasanya..

sepi!

iyaa...
sepi...
entah kemana semua orangorang..
hanya suara yang menemaniku..
suara siapa?
tanya ayam!

kok bisaa??

iyaaaa....
bisa saja...

orangorang sok sibukkk...
orangorang sok warawiri...

entah apa mereka ingat mereka..
sesama makhlukNya..
ataukah,
daging yang bergenerasi seperti mereka itu disimpan saja dalam lemari-listrik-dingin mereka??

huh!

saya tauuuu...
itu bukan urusan saya...
memang...
itu urusan mereka...
saya sebagai mereka hanya mengingatkan kepada mereka.. :)

lusanyalebaran - sekedarunutwaktu mode: ON

and then?

kacaukanku, kaca.

entahlah...

kamu jujur di depan.
tapi racun di belakang.

kamu memberitahuku semua yang aku tak lihat.
iya..

aku selalu jalan ke depan..
jarang ngeliat ke belakang..
*males deh, sejarah*

kamu ngasih tau ke aku, semuasemuashithings di belakangku.
makasih.

tapi tau gak?

hari ini, sumpah-demi-sumpah! aku BENCI ma kamu!!!
gimana gak!
kamu selalu nyoba nusuk aku pake sudutmu yang paling tajam!!
OMG!

arrgh!!
sakit tau!
anjing!

hari ini, sumpah-demi-sumpah! aku BENCI ma kamu!!! *lagi*
gimana gak!
kamu (dulu) janji. apapun yang aku simpan di kamu, kamu jaga.
nyatanya apaaa???
kenapa mama tirinya snow white bisa tau??

kurap!!
iblis!
arrgh!!!!!

hari ini, sumpah-demi-sumpah! aku superBENCI ma kamu!!! *lagi dan lagii*
kenapa????!!!
nanya lagi!

kamu PECAH!!!!

itu salah kamu!
itu salah kamu!!
itu salah kamu....!!!!!!!!

jangan bawa-bawa aku!!!
kamu sudah pecah berserakan!
menyisakan sampah!

hahaha
gantian, ya?
kali ini, aku yang nyimpan sampah kamu!
tapi sayang, sampah kamu abadi..
aku males nyimpan.
gimana kalo aku buang juga?
sekalian.

soalnya kamu RACUN!!
gimana gak..
kamu itu ada raksanya!
gak bisa nyatu ma darahku!
ntar aku jadi mutan, lagi!
gak mau!
aku gak mau jadi mutan!
cukup!
aku tak akan jadi mutan lagi!
ini sudah bentuk terbaik dari transformasiku!
jangan kacaukan aku, plisss!!!

kalo kamu mau kacaukan aku,
tunggu aba-aba dariku.

supaya kamu puas.
aku pun puas.

hmm...
tunggu.
1
dua
three!

*eeeerrrrrooooooorrrrrrrrrr*

puas?
gak?
gak masalah..
kamu emang gak pernah ada.
jadi ini hanya terjadi di otakotorku.

hahaha
ngarep ini terjadi?
sejauh mana pikiran kamu bisa main?
itu yang terjadi..
jadi?
jadi.. silahkan saja membayangkannya!

otakotoracunih mode: ON

and then?

hujan?

iya..
sekarang lagi hujan..
ntah nanti..

hujan hilang diharap..
hujan datang hina..

heran.
heran.
heran.

yahh..

dasar manusia.
tak pernah puas, tak pernah memuaskan, tak pernah dipuaskan.
dasar manusia.

apaaa??!

kamu tersinggung??!

hahaha

jadi kenapa?

dasar!

baru saja aku bilang manusia, kalian sudah merasa.

ngaca dong!

apakah manusia namanya, korupsi dimana-mana?!
apakah manusia namanya, membantah orang tua?!
apakah manusia namanya, membuat tanah menangis?!
apakah manusia namanya, tak pernah ikhlas dan syukur?!

hujan lebih baik darimu, manusia!
dia selalu ikhlas mengerjakan tugasnya, walau dia enggan melihat tanah kalian sudah rapuh dan becek!
hujan lebih baik darimu, manusia!
dia selalu bersyukur melihat kalian saling bertanya kabar setelah ia mengerjakan tugasnya dengan ikhlas!

masih tidak tahu diri?

terserahmu sajalah..

aku juga manusia.

sudut mati, hari ini hujan mode: ON

and then?

new?

entahlah..

hmmm....

mungkin hasil dari bentukan endapan gejala stress, akhirnya saya membuat blog *akun* baru..

postingan lama bisa dilihat disini.

hmmmm...

saya tahu, itu sudah basi dari yang terbasi..
tapi, apa salahnya jika saya ber-narsis ria dengan mempostingnya lagi?

adakah yang protes?
silahkan..
tak ada yang melarang..
selagi anda saya ijinkan untuk memprotesnya..

:) and then?